Hardscrabble

03 May 2006 10:24:08 AM GMT+08:00
An email to me from my ex-lover that promises too much and nothing been done. She left me and got back to her old relationship : telling now that she felt the pain of her actions. Is that so to be? She left me in June 2006, after all that we had plan, went to Japan to bring her home and more. ... really more. Is there still romance? or just lies...

Here's the email...

Am now reading `By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept', another novel by Paulo Coelho, also the author of `Alchemist' and `Zahir'. It's a story of love and dreams, and is so meaningful. He's a writer whose words so often speak to me -- his thoughts and philosophies on life.
 
here's the author's note:
"with love, there are no rules. some may try to control their emotions and develop strategies for their behaviour; others may turn to reading books of advice from `experts' on relationships --but this is all folly. the heart decides, and what it decides is all that really matters.
 
all of us have had this experience. at some point, we have each said through our tears, `I'm suffering for a love that's not worth it.' we suffer because we feel we are giving more than we receive. we suffer because our love is going unrecognized. we suffer because we are unable to impose our own rules.
 
but ultimately there is no good reason for our suffering, for in every love lies a seed of our growth. the more we love, the closer we come to spiritual experience. those who are truly enlightened, those whose souls are illuminated by love, have been able to overcome all of the inhibitions and preconceptions of their era. they have been able to sing, to laugh, and to pray out loud; they have danced and shared what saint paul called 'the madness of saintliness.' they have been joyful --because those who love conquer the world and have no fear of loss. true love is an act of total surrender.
 
this book is about the importance of that surrender. pilar and her companion are fictitious, but they represent the many conflicts that beset us in our search for love. sooner or later, we have to overcome our fears, because the spiritual path can only be travelled through the daily experience of love.
 
thomas merton once said that the spiritual love is essentially to love. one doesn't love in order to do what is good or to help or to protect someone. if we act that way, we are perceiving the other as a simple object, and we are seeing ourselves as wise and generous persons. this has nothing to do with love. to love is to be in communion with the other and to discover in that other the spark of God."
 
..., this is what i want to share with you today from what i've read. I, too, want to `discover' in you 'the spark of God'. I'll write you more, in parts, what I've read.
 
love, she